Do you have that phase in life when you don't get the head or tail of what is happening to you...things just run haywire?
Yes,am currently going through such a mad phase in life. Life at present is like this roller-coaster running at a super speed when everything you see moves so fast that you don't get the time to even realise what exactly is happening around you.Things are turning out so terribly and unexpectedly that I have got no clue what exactly is happening to me and my peaceful cove. By the time I get the hang of things and figure whats wrong,its just too late to make a change and something else has worsened. And I hate it when I don't have control over myself and my life. I strictly believe that it is always me who makes things good or bad in my life but this time,I don't seem to figure what exactly is wrong. And trust me,nothing gets worse when you just dunno where to start to make things better.
And what makes things even more horrible than they were, this is frustrating me so much that I have lost all my sanity and I am now behaving like a jerk with everyone around me. I so hate myself for this. Its so unfair to mistreat people for what they haven't done. :( I feel like writing long long apology letters to all those I have hurt for no reason. Thank God I have friends who love and know me too well not to judge me for the present. I know they have forgiven me before I say sorry. I love you guys.
Someone,give me a tight slap. Yes I need one now,really bad. Someone to put some sense into my little head at this moment. Okay a tight hug would do if you can't slap me. The slap is more fun though!
I suppose, I need to take my time to figure whats wrong,whats it that I have done to make things turn out this way. I need to think over what got me into this mess and I need to come out of this. I know I can ,might take me some time though. God ,give me the strength for I gotta act alone now.
Its really funny that whenever something goes wrong or am in a crisis,God has his way of telling me what to do next. yeah i might sound crazy but trust me,it does happen. I just have to keep my senses open for clues. Things like a dialogue from a movie or a line from a song or a sms from a friend comes as my life saver,exactly when I needed it. Is it actually help from God or is it just my mind searching too desperately for inspiration and strength from the most mundane things,I don't really know.
Am gonna paint my blue converse orange. Colours just brighten my mood instantly. And then am gonna eat baked fish in cheese sauce till the point I feel too sick of its cheesiness. Am going to watch Paris je t'aime for the 7th time. That is one film which makes me smile every time I watch it. Read Pablo Neruda and Eliot and some other random stuff. And am going to curl up into my cocoon and think for a while. Just wish that I find peace and my sanity back.
Am listening to Drake and Rihanna's "Take Care" for almost the 200th time today. I can't get over the song somehow. You like it?
Yes,am currently going through such a mad phase in life. Life at present is like this roller-coaster running at a super speed when everything you see moves so fast that you don't get the time to even realise what exactly is happening around you.Things are turning out so terribly and unexpectedly that I have got no clue what exactly is happening to me and my peaceful cove. By the time I get the hang of things and figure whats wrong,its just too late to make a change and something else has worsened. And I hate it when I don't have control over myself and my life. I strictly believe that it is always me who makes things good or bad in my life but this time,I don't seem to figure what exactly is wrong. And trust me,nothing gets worse when you just dunno where to start to make things better.
And what makes things even more horrible than they were, this is frustrating me so much that I have lost all my sanity and I am now behaving like a jerk with everyone around me. I so hate myself for this. Its so unfair to mistreat people for what they haven't done. :( I feel like writing long long apology letters to all those I have hurt for no reason. Thank God I have friends who love and know me too well not to judge me for the present. I know they have forgiven me before I say sorry. I love you guys.
Someone,give me a tight slap. Yes I need one now,really bad. Someone to put some sense into my little head at this moment. Okay a tight hug would do if you can't slap me. The slap is more fun though!
I suppose, I need to take my time to figure whats wrong,whats it that I have done to make things turn out this way. I need to think over what got me into this mess and I need to come out of this. I know I can ,might take me some time though. God ,give me the strength for I gotta act alone now.
Its really funny that whenever something goes wrong or am in a crisis,God has his way of telling me what to do next. yeah i might sound crazy but trust me,it does happen. I just have to keep my senses open for clues. Things like a dialogue from a movie or a line from a song or a sms from a friend comes as my life saver,exactly when I needed it. Is it actually help from God or is it just my mind searching too desperately for inspiration and strength from the most mundane things,I don't really know.
Am gonna paint my blue converse orange. Colours just brighten my mood instantly. And then am gonna eat baked fish in cheese sauce till the point I feel too sick of its cheesiness. Am going to watch Paris je t'aime for the 7th time. That is one film which makes me smile every time I watch it. Read Pablo Neruda and Eliot and some other random stuff. And am going to curl up into my cocoon and think for a while. Just wish that I find peace and my sanity back.
Am listening to Drake and Rihanna's "Take Care" for almost the 200th time today. I can't get over the song somehow. You like it?
understand girl....im also going thru a weird phase :)
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Thank you so much Sushmita,I hope you get over it soon. good luck and love.
Delete*Super Tight Hug* I am here, always. No matter what. You, take time with yourself - let yourself heal. Love you my Angel. :) :)
ReplyDeleteRoller Coaster can also mean adrenaline rush. Enjoy just the motion. :D :* <3
Adrenaline rush...hahaha...you make me laugh in the most weirdest situations :D I would be lost without ya...love u mwah :*
DeleteWhen I read the title I assumed it must be some fun filled post.
ReplyDeleteThough I cannot say I can understand what you feeling right now as only you can....but I can definately send you a nice warm hug and just say,
This too shall pass
Just hold your horses tight and enjoy the ride
TC
Thank you darling...the hug was much needed :)
DeleteWelcome to the first day, of my everyday.
ReplyDeleteLOL, yep, this is the story of my life. Cheers to the weird phases!
Oh my sweetie...it must be terrible...but its time I need to change things for good...hope things get better with you too...hugs...
Deletedis shd help: lose control to take control. try it. also count on ur blessings n see d magic begin.
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Losing control...yeah that is exactly am trying to do right now,dunno if that is going to set things right. Thanks a lot :)
Deleteit happens...and u know what when u read it days later....they bring smile on your face! :)
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Thanks...am actually smiling reading this :D
DeleteI understand totally. I am at a transition phase in my life where I really don't know what I am doing or where I am going. I'm just along for the ride.
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Yeah I have found what exactly was wrong,it was my perception about certain things in life. I have now left it to life to surprise me ...floating on the waves :D
DeleteHey to begin with, thanks for the generous compliments and I appreciate you reading the posts instead of just giving it just a glance. About this post I read and if my guess (from the photo in the header and the craving for that fish in your post) is right, then what you have written about in your post seems more like the Tram'times from Bengal... seems like it is everywhere, can't escape its pre-wired destiny and all that one has to do is wait for it to return to point zero. Happens. Yet you have a hold of all the things you should do for a breather and that is quite matured. yes and by the by, I too am amazed at the way there is a mutual thought process between us-crazy, eccentric, plainly stupid or utter genius! hahahaha...
ReplyDeleteTram times ...that makes me smile :D
DeleteAm flattered :) Yeah the similarities abound...i find an uncanny resemblance in our thought processes..I loved all your posts :)