Hello pretty people!!
Life has been pretty maddening for a while for both of us, so neither of us could post anything in the last week. Arpi has returned and will be back to regular posting asap. And I'll be back when I find my sanity.
Saying goodbyes has been the most difficult thing for me throughout my life. I have serious attachment issues, be it places, people, things...I just get attached to them too much (much more than is healthy for me) and it gets really painful when I have to bid them goodbye and move ahead. I know its really stupid trying to hold on to everything that you love, its practically impossible and byes are inevitable. Many things changed in the past few days. I had to shift houses and say goodbye to my old house, a place I really really loved very much. The new place isn't the same, the people around are different and so are the walls that are around me, they are not even the same colour :( Plus , I had to say goodbye to a friend whom I love and treasure very much. He is irreplaceable but then sometimes voids are better than bitter memories. As they say, everybody comes with a purpose, some people are meant to stay and some are to be let go of. I guess he was one of them. Its really sad but then moving on is what life is all about.
I was terribly upset about these stuff and when am in a turmoil, I just wake up in the middle of my sleep and scribble stuff in my notebook that doesn't make any sense to me when I read it in the morning. Here is one such piece and as always, it is incoherent and misses all the punctuation marks. I didn't add any later.
Evanescent
Pretty bubble
Shining and glimmering
Glistening like a rainbow
The sun shines down
And pop it goes
Just like that illusion that was you
But alas, my love was not like it
That's sad and most of the good bye's are always painful ......but life can be summed up in three words "it goes on " all the best with your new place :) :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Vinisha :) Yep, that is exactly what life is. All you have at times are sweet memories from the past. :)
Deleteto hold on..sometimes you wake up to find that all the people around you have moved on, and you are still stuck in the moment...:(
ReplyDeleteThe above comment is by moi...didn't realise that I was logged in husby's account :p
ReplyDeletehahaha no issues :D
DeleteYes, exactly !! That is exactly how I feel at times...stuck in this weird sort of pause mode...everything around you seems running past and you stuck in time.
u are shifting? I hope u stay in Kolkata. BTW u can have pets now as u could never have them in the old one..no?
ReplyDeleteI already shifted the house and yes, am still in Kolkata :)
DeleteOh you remember the pet thing?? :D But sad as it is, even though I can get a pet but there won't be anybody to take constant care of it,most of us don't stay at home full time :(
That is truly life and I can relate to it...as I myself am going through something similar but as someone has just said in the comments above that is life - it goes on. And change is the only thing persistence in this world.....!!
ReplyDeleteWell I also do wake up weird hours but sadly cannot remember what I was thinking to note it down...:)
Loved your lines..hugs to you..I am sure we both will be soon out of it. Back to our usual chirpiness!!!
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*hugs you back tight* yes, this too shall pass and we'll be back to being our old selves :) btw the lines I scribble at those weird hours have nothing to do with what I was thinking...i mostly write them in a state of half sleep when most of the ideas are not even logical.
Deleteah Swar! You are just so sweet and loving! Big hugs!!
ReplyDeleteCherry Lane xoxo
Hey Kiran!! long time!! *hugs you back* thanks so much :)
Deletewelcome ot my world , I got the same issues too saying goodbyes ..
ReplyDeletetake care.. and think you say bye only to meet again very soon .. I use to hate the word BYE , I would rather say SEE YOU.. than bye
Bikram's
Hello there!!
DeleteYeah see you sounds and feels much better than a bye but when its the last time you'll ever have or see the person, a bye is more appropriate, I suppose.
letting go is always difficult and it's all the more painful when you are aware that there's no looking back. but honestly, i feel that having a chance to say it is better than not getting to say goodbye at all! you're poetry has always been well expressed, i liked this one just as much as the others! :)
ReplyDeleteAM glad you liked the lines, sweets :) Well, the good part of letting go is that you make space for better things to come in :) *hugs*
DeleteHi Swarnali!
ReplyDeleteNice post and a great blog!
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Hello Amit ji!!
DeleteThank you and welcome to Dreams n Drama :)